Missless

I woke up this morning and I stopped missing you..
It was like the years of friendship disolved into a large puddle of mess our relationship was,
And flushed itself straight down the toilet.
I guess it started months before I said I love you.
Years before I couldn't stand you...
I have been missing some part of you since our souls seperated in heaven.
Although...certainty is only assured by fact your smile haunts me like a memory lost within the ripples of time...
Wrapped tightly around us so that you can feel the meaning rather than hear words which have been empty before.
But strangely, today...that longing lost the luster.
The last link in this chain bonding my love to yours.
Broke into a thousand pieces like cheap shattered glass.
Crystal doesn't come with the same impervious guarantee.
But I'm sure this is what you get for love on stand by.
So idle hearts broken from lost love tried to reattach the jagged halves to make whole.
Though the tape and super glue generally hold fast for short periods,
The permanance of malmatched love is preordained to fail.
So blinded, vision distorted by anger, hurt, and dispare,
I climbed into my own self loathing and mourned a very special friendship destroyed by loneliness.
An empty feeling of unwant that lead me to believe every moment which I existed was for your happiness.
For that...I was wrong.
But...somehow...someway...
I woke up this morning and I stopped missing you.
So where is up,
Why is down,
When is left,
And most importantly...
Who is right...if anyone?